6.28.17 I cannot follow

You have gone off, and I can't find you
You, who I used to hold close, have wandered off
You, who didn't notice my efforts or observation 

or careful mindful ways
Holding you close and offering to you and asking 

You who come and go, sole proprietor without 

noticing how you choose
You who struggle with this fast flowing mystery school
Who averts eyes and avoids thought 

and communication and care in hopes 

you can deter its steady beat
You who go off and where you are I cannot follow