2.21.18 Engaging

When we push away a part of ourselves, we move into a trance. 
Where we are partly awake, partly asleep. 

The cost of closing down a part of ourselves. 
Where we don’t have full access to all of our awareness or our resources. 

We divide ourselves when we are uncertain what to do with our own perceptions. 
When our own perceptions do not fit well with what we are being told or what we are being urged to believe in the world. From others.

When we are unable to have the strength or courage to believe our own perceptions, or the probable consequences, our next best bet is to turn away from ourselves and make believe.

Make believe never ends well.
But sometimes it’s all we manage at the time.

So now that we realize , now that we understand what we chose, 
and what went down as a result, 
we turn and refuse shame or self-recrimination. 

We turn and we forgive ourselves our mistakes.

We turn toward our selves with compassion and kindness. 
Embracing all of us. 
Understanding what happened. 
Not needing lament, but engaging in forgiveness. 

And kindness . 

Coming upon grace. And love.