2.25.18 But the biggest problem

There are some major consequences of living in a way that is not honest. 

One is physical stress, because it actually takes physical energy , 
creating a lot of tension in the body and mind, to lie, and maintain a lie. 

Even when our personas are so used to exaggerating or leaning in certain directions, 
the body gets tense with deception . Holding together the two lives,
one of a tangled web of titilating stories necessary to maintain
the other the actual that liars hide even from themselves
instead habituating a made up land of entitled justification

Deception perpetuates a sense of an unsafe self, too. 
Because, when we’re lying, that comes from a sense of being threatened. 
Lying perpetuates that feeling. 
Of no safety. 
Of not enough love. 
Of not being enough.
How very sad.