11.28.16
Learning to give the current events a smaller slice for now, the late November day was in fact a good enough day, cool and sunny and complex and tough stuff and sweet, right down to the last walk and bit of fresh air and holding hands laughter and quiet pauses and sleep.
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11.29.16
Dark, cold, rainy and quiet.
Some of my favorite things.
And not so bad for the water table, either.
Water Is Life.
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11.30.16
So not accustomed to city. Huge numbers of people. Tunnels! Tall tall buildings!
Very different than the quiet life
in fields and forests.
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12.1.16
Yesterday it was a beautiful day, a tired day, a warm December beginnings day. With some pretty tough things, mixed with some good things and a few hopeful things. As a dear friend visited and smoothed and embraced. And then off we went, into the basking blue puff-ball world of today and yesterday and tomorrow.
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12.2.16
Sometimes we have some of our old crap, that gets touched off like it's brandy new, and goes bashing around with our present day crap we've been working through. And together they made a big noisy confusing bunch of upsetting crap. So we settle ourselves down and give those around us a heads up. That we'll maybe be thinking or feeling stuff that isn't exactly present time. But hey, we'll do our best to issue acknowledgment or apologies as we can, and we'll breathe deep and use our favorite whittling-down tools, and just wait the sucker out. Feeling like big bad stuff is happening. Then realizing it's just the old stuff, bumping around for a bit. But will settle back down soon.
Back and forth it goes, til we're crabby then so tired of it; , then angry that we have to struggle so. Then relieved and filled with gratitude for the resourcefulness we've learned over the years.
Waiting waiting it out. Blessing ourselves with compassion and patience. Taking it easy on ourselves as it winds down.
Knowing we'll be back in our hard won present day quicker than we know. There are too many of us. But our resilience and tenacity remains astounding.
Back and forth it goes, til we're crabby then so tired of it; , then angry that we have to struggle so. Then relieved and filled with gratitude for the resourcefulness we've learned over the years.
Waiting waiting it out. Blessing ourselves with compassion and patience. Taking it easy on ourselves as it winds down.
Knowing we'll be back in our hard won present day quicker than we know. There are too many of us. But our resilience and tenacity remains astounding.
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