2.19.17 Sleepless and whyfor

     It's rare now, to find myself sleepless. When it happens,more often than not, I'm old enough and experienced enough to know that it always means something is up. 
     So for me, if I've already exercised and already done mindfulness with the various errant sources of distress... If I've already used EFT for the remaining tangles and flip flopping things, then chances are there is something important to sit with, as it IS tangled up. 
     And it knows well that I need to become aware of it, and then sit and hold it's hand, because that's the only way it knows how to untangle up.
     Making believe it's not happening does not work. Pretending it's just something uncomfortable I can avoid or ignore is not reality.
     Fiddling around with machines will only screw with the Pineal Gland and only make it worse.
     Skirting about it may mean I can fall asleep, and possibly sleep late enough , but the deep wise self knocking on the door of conscious awareness luckily will not stop.
     Chances are, I'll be up up up in the night.
     And really, what are we willing to do so that does not happen? The answer? A LOT. Hence, the early morning workout.
     So it's simply up to me to be honest.
     To venture toward the real stuff, fact based and straightforward with myself.
     Fess up to the deal no matter whether I approve or sanction or disagree or am ashamed or not.
     No bother. It simply does not matter.
     It is what it is, so deal.