Thursday, September 1, 2016

8.19.18 We are figuring things out

As we pay our bills and clean our dishes and take care of what we must, 
we observe the world around us. 
We are figuring out how to live and where to live, 
who to love and what our actual choices are, 
every single minute of our precious lives.





8.19.1 6 Finding out

     We get so confused, once real tough stuff takes over. So many things are happening that we didn't expect. It's so easy to hunker down into the disappointment. The bitter anger. How could this be? Did we deserve this and we are no good? Or is life unfair? Is everyone else getting the better stuff? 
     If anyone deserves the really good stuff, it should be us. Look how hard we worked. How much we've suffered. How unfair things have been for us. 
     These are the stories we tell ourselves, that distract us from learning. That hold sway against settling down into our own actuality. Facing our circumstance. 
     Finding out if we are going to coalesce and make the supreme effort for ourselves or not.



 

8.19.16 I was

Immersed in the woods, as the sun set.


8.19.16 We become rendered





Our lives are a whole other thing. 
They're haphazard and cumulative and all bets are off.
If we call ourselves out, lick our wounds, and then stand up and look around, with the true intent of perceiving only what actually is, we unknowingly become honed into our simplest most essential self. We unintentionally become rendered into what we can just be.

8.18.16 All in a row

Crows crows crows.

 Five sibling crows.
All in a row.
Crows crows crows.

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8.18.16 Our efforts affording us


     One of the things most of us seem to struggle with, if our survival, in terms of safety, food, water and shelter, are set for now, is the yearning for meaning. The sense of meaningful in our day to day lives. When we're younger, if we've half a chance, we search for meaning via acquisition, from the sense of being admirable, valued in some fashion. 
     We try to acquire standing in our community, or objects, people who are also valued to be around us, or things like well respected abilities, occupations or stature.
     One of the things I like most about slowly growing older is the increasing capacity to settle down into days and nights enough to come upon the meaning infused in the simple stuff of life.
     It's not easy. Oh no. To not be able to necessarily go after additional skills or better pay or opportunities or big projects or travel or things that necessitate strength or health or money.
     When all of that slows with our relations with the world at large, it is possible to continue this vitality and sense of inquiry on our own.
It's just a little tough.
     We must become the one who urges and the one who persists, the one who validates the value ,and the one who sits in the sunset filled both with the sadness borne of a more limited life, and the great good gifts our efforts have afforded us today.

8.18.16 LIfe is not a mail order catalog

Life's not a mail order catalog. 
It's not Sears, like when we were little, lying on the living room floor, with a pen, circling all our heart's desires. 
We can hang out doing that all we want, but it will get us nowhere.