Sunday, March 3, 2019

2.25.18 But the biggest problem

There are some major consequences of living in a way that is not honest. 

One is physical stress, because it actually takes physical energy , 

creating a lot of tension in the body and mind, to lie, and maintain a lie. 

Even when our personas are so used to exaggerating or leaning in certain directions, 

the body gets tense with deception . Holding together the two lives,
one of a tangled web of titilating stories necessary to maintain
the other the actual that liars hide even from themselves
instead habituating a made up land of entitled justification

Deception perpetuates a sense of an unsafe self, too. 

Because, when we’re lying, that comes from a sense of being threatened. 
Lying perpetuates that feeling. 
Of no safety. 
Of not enough love. 
Of not being enough.
How very sad.




2.25.18 This day

The day is saved by its own beauty

.25.18 Small Smooth Ochre

Yesterday , down by the farmers fields
the land was true blue across the heavens
smooth ochre beneath the waves



2.25.18 What they did

1. Castor oil compresses to fix lungs, joints
2. Meditate 3. Miso
4. Planet Fitness
5. Dog walk
6. Enfold sadness and grief with mindfulness
7. Fill out many confusing necessary forms
8. Reside in the veritable beauty of this da
y


2.23.18 Hide It

Eli's comin', hide your heart, girl
Eli's comin', hide your heart, girl

Girl, Eli's a-comin', you better hide
Girl, Eli's a-comin', you better hide
Girl, Eli's a-comin', you better hide

Girl, Eli's comin', hide your heart, girl (hide it)
You better, better hide your heart
Eli's comin', better walk

Walk but you'll never get away
No, you'll never get away
From the burnin' a-heartache

I walked to Apollo by the bay
Everywhere I go though,

Eli's a-comin' (she walked but she never got away)
Eli's a-comin' (she walked but she never got away)
Eli's a-comin' and he's comin' to git ya
(she walked but... she walked but...)
Get…



2.23.18 Happily



Out I happily went

into the bright new morning

to greet the day we have been given

sandals happily slipped on

2.23.18 Dear Stream

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to me
Can't you see

You’re everything I hope for
You’re everything I need
You are so beautiful to me