Monday, April 14, 2014

4.14.14 So Much Inside of Us Is Appeased By Sitting Out






This evening, I am out upon the ridge, nestled in the foothills of the small mountain range,  sitting in this early springtime  dusk, watching the sun go down. My shepherd and I. Far below us, lies the swollen flooded fields, from recent rains.  As we sit in the deep layers of leaf and loam, the golden  sun is setting ; reflected upon the fields and seasonal ponds, and finally, far off on the horizon, the Connecticut river itself  is glistening golden through  the still bare trees. 


Small breezes sweep through the waters , causing ripples visible even from far up here. My pup chews upon sticks and happily chases them, as I sit quietly upon  a still asleep land, save the ferns, one of the first to show themselves, even beneath snow.


A stronger wind comes through, sending all of the treetops bending and swaying, as it passes quietly by.


And at 61, I recall the song I found so wondrous at age 4. Part of a Christina Rossetti poem, Do you remember this?

Who has seen the wind?
Neither you nor I
But when the trees bow down their heads
The wind is passing by.


One lone great Blue Heron floats overhead, wings motionless, as the barrage of peepers quiets . Surprise, but they did see the bird, and all unanimously quieted,  as if at the prompt of a chorus director,  for one minute, before  hundreds return to chiming  once again.


Tired of chasing sticks, Dante noticed and barked apprehensively at an old tree stump far down the hill ; but soon enough, the pup was happily engaged in digging up the rich forest loam. Lying in it contentedly, never questioning why.


Today one of my children stopped by with their beloved, a wonderful short surprise visit. Seamless it was, sitting outside and talking. What a deep pleasure comes with settled adult offspring, love filling your breast - such deep happiness just to spend  moments together. 


And no matter the past, and believe me -  there is a past that warrants a Sylvester Stallone movie,  still, gradually the present becomes larger and more vibrant and alive, and the past is relegated to some beautiful compost the underlies the value of today.

Far below is the roadway that leads to plots along the river, no buildings, just one old dirt road that allows some farmers a pathway for their tractors. And some ease of passage for the Coywolves, although it's warmer now, food is plentiful, and they have moved far out, away from humans ;  their survival insured here in mid April.


A noisy  helicopter passes through the neighborhood, as the sun slowly becomes invisible behind the distant hills, the golden light cast upon the leaves surrounding us, then upon the waters farther away, pink  slowly set alight along the horizon above the blue, and an orange that appears all along the distance , spreading slowing across the very top of the sunset.

We have such a view from where we sit, and both of us keep looking looking for wildlife. But probably our noise and our smell stick out like any old kind of sore  thumb. 

Slowly we have come to be out here each evening, to bid good night to the day, as do millions of humans and other species the world over. Upon water and desert and forest and city and country.  

Small wind passes by far below, creating a long single ripple across the lake upon the fields .
The reflection of trees and sky in the waters glimmers as the heavens darken and the woods around us moves toward night.

Slowly the pup becomes more comfortable being out here. More accustomed to the intermittent ducks and geese and flocks of birds settling and talking amongst themselves. He begins to understand the safety versus the unknown. The peacefulness, and familiarity of our neighborhood.


So much inside of us is appeased by sitting out. The wild ones do this whenever their bellies are full and things are right with the world. Humans forget. We forget so easily the vital importance of sitting out.

I drive through my neighborhood and seeing all of the older people  sit out. Every single evening. Settling themselves. Letting all the experiences they had today slowly come to some sort of stillness.

 Oh, with young children, or a workaday world, this is much more difficult.

And I suppose it becomes an inadvertent gift when your health is compromised, your activity slowed, and there is the time and value to settling yourself well.




And in this way, another precious day comes to a close. In this way, the daytime animals settles themselves in for the night, and the nocturnal creatures will alight, as the earth turns, the wind sweeps by, and the season slowly progresses on its way.

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