Sometimes, we are struggling with such odds.
Noticing when we are more belabored, noticing when our thoughts and
determination begin to sink where our physicality is struggling, or our
physical health tumbling after our obdurate sense of 'How can I manage this?’
There are so many 'This's in our lives from
beginning to end. So that our capacity to develop our own flavor of resilience
is essential. Because our responses to difficulty are a secondary wave that
often challenges us as much as the initial hardship.
The exception is that we have choices about how
to respond to great difficulty. We have resources to inch ourselves from
flatlined in some swampy place, to up on our elbows, to struggling to put
things back into perspective, to finding within and without the way that doing
this might seem hard, but in fact is how we are feeling about it.
The thing we choose to do is simpler. It is
simply settling ourselves, empathizing with ourselves. Getting clearer, and
then focusing.
On pushing up from our hands.
On pulling upon one knee, and then the other.
On raising our head, without being distracted
by the idea of how impossibly hard this is to do.
Of getting one foot, and then the other, back
flat on that ground.
Of pushing ourselves to standing, without
falling over again.
Of opening our eyes, flexing our beautiful
muscles.
Of putting aside the chatter of 'What is wrong’
and ‘ We can’t do this’ and
‘This is too hard’ and ‘It doesn’t work’ and
‘We are too weak.’
Which is all before the chatter gets all warmed
up and starts spinning the destructing stories form the past.
We embrace and silence the chatter in a second.
We don’t negotiate with the chatter. We turn, smiling, from the chatter, and
let it roll by without ceremony.
We turn to that which works. We pull a small
smile upon our face. We turn toward what we can do. We feel our feet on solid
ground and that is enough. We turn into the wind.
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