Sunday, December 13, 2015

12.13.15 Beyond reckoning



     I've always been interested in the way we become close to a place, and slowly grow a sense of it. Like a new acquaintance, peering at them and smiling and talking about some odd thing, the getting-to-know-you-dance.
I remember the abject need- for forest, for quiet, for beauty, when I was young.
     As I grew up, always there was a need for an escape hatch of some sort. Away at school on a particularly difficult day, I remember leaving a meal and racing down the road and across the front lawn to the stream beneath the trees, only to have my best and dearest friend go racing past, and sit on the rocks, waiting for me there, in that secluded place of succor. That moment stays within me, as part of my bones and sinews, always. Both of us going to a beautiful comforting place.
     As I grew older, I began to realize that when developing a relationship with a place, it's important to come to it, not out of need, but out of strength and a clear sense of your self. Or at least openness for whatever the place held.
     That, like a friendship or a lover, using that knowing to fill some emptiness I had not learned to nourish myself was not the path to clarity and truly seeing a place for what it is.
     And it would not unveil its wonder and beauty and full self, if I approached from neediness, and a whiny desire to forget hard things or have something/someone pretend to be able to fix it for me.
     We begin to learn that getting to know a place is so much like an important person we sense will soon mean a great deal to us. To take it slowly, and approach with our integrity and wholeness.
The unfolding is what amazes us, though, and the indeterminate nature of who or what was doing the unfolding- our consciousness, our capacity to perceive, or the place in question.
     When we are fond of a place, be it a corner of the city, especially in early morning, with the light just so and the place stark and empty, or a flooded place down by a river, both have a remarkable way of being that will slowly infiltrate us, and change us - until we begin to notice and see all things we were blind to before.
     Much like the 'Copenhagen Interpretation' , where the observed changes when interacting with the observer, land does the same thing. A place with microbes and growing things does the same. And remember, who is to say which is the observer, our human selves, or the land?
When we slowly grow a relationship with a place, NOT our emotional associations with the place based on our experiences, but the place itself, devoid of our baggage, it deepens with each season. Each storm, or drought or startling spring. With each new day or phenomena, we become familiar with more depth of the place.
     The interaction deepens and brings forth so much more.
     When I go photograph the same places on different days or sunrises or sunsets or storms or seasons, each time it's like I run into you somewhere, and we talk a bit. I get a sense of how you are doing, unconsciously my self evaluates your scent that conveys health and functioning, and our knowing each other becomes more complex. And if we like each other, it becomes more and more pleasurable and interesting.
     I love this about places. I love returning, and listening and watching and smelling and hiking or sitting and having that interaction.
     It's not about pretending the place has ears and eyes, no need to go veering into Anthropomorphism. Who needs that? When what is before us is remarkable beyond reckoning, and holds such beauty beyond imagining.
Which is why the concept of a sense of place is a pleasing one. 
     It comes closest to articulating that priceless experience, of being with a place or some land or a field or stand of trees or beach or river or corner of streets. 
     Where what is happening in that place becomes something that is happening within ourselves, too.



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