10.2.15 Whatever we are living at all

Sometimes I watch myself as these contemplations of aging , surprises , and disappointments - mixed well with lovely stuffs, come up . 

I sometimes think. 'Gwen, honey; you're not 80 and falling downhill . What's up ?" 

And then I realize maybe it's just a process of doing that incremental adapting to the losses ... 

Of so many small and large parts of life .

Living with uncertainty as to how differing parts will play out. 

Then , it makes sense to me all over again . 

The way each of us chooses to write and dream and create around whatever we find ourselves living .