I have not experienced much loss at all,
in terms of humans who are no longer here, who were good and kind and meant
something to me. No, no friends either, somehow.
Like many of you, I've endured other
losses, in a myriad of ways. Because all of life comes and visits and then
goes, that intransigent nature of all things.
But then, there are these lives, where one
person gets the reasonably nice partner, the nice house, and the toxic job that
sickens them early. There is the person with the wide wonderful family of
origin and the intricate flourishing gardens, who yearns for a partner. There
are those whose beloved family members are lost, and lost again, so many that
you have an ache for them in your heart, all the time, for years.
And then there is that reckoning, that
arrives on our doorstop and offers itself to all of us. Where each of us looks
into the small precious basket of whatever we came here with, and whatever we
managed to nourish and grow, and we settle ourselves with whatever feels over
now, changed, gone.
And slowly, the sense of loss...of feeling
as though something was taken from us too soon....begins to settle into a rich
warm fullness, far inside, that settles on down forever.
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